|On February 23, 2004, we lost both Holly and Cally...within minutes of
each other. Holly had been sick for a long time...she could barely walk anymore. We knew it
was her time. I called Jean and asked her if she wanted to say good-bye to Holly before we
had her helped to the Bridge. [as it turned out, Jean took her to her vet to be helped...while
we took Cally to another vet to try one more thing to save her life.] We had gotten Holly
from Jean Caputo-Lee, Ferrets Unlimited Ferret Shelter, on
December 30, 1999. She came With OldGuy...he had to leave us 4 months later. Jean and her
husband, John, had saved Holly's life...here is a link to that story...
Holly's Story by Jean
Caputo-Lee. I saw Holly at the shelter when i went there to get 2 other ferrets. I did
not get Holly and OldGuy at that time...but she kept 'calling' to me. Obviously, we went back
and got her and OldGuy in December of 1999. She was such a special little lady.
When Holly's "room-mate", Princess, was getting close to her time to leave, I called Jean and said we were going to need to get another gentle soul to keep Holly company. She would be all alone when Princess had to go.
By the time we got up there, Jean had Cally all picked out. A PERFECT little chocolate girl.
Jean said that cally was timid...hid from all the other ferrets there...never dooked or war-danced. So much for that...As soon as we decided that Cally was the one...[was there EVER any doubt????]...we took Cally downstairs...let her run for a while in Jean's living room... she was dooking and dancing...:)
And she never stopped...till she got sick in January, 2004. We tried and tried and tried... everything we could think of to save her.
Her death devastated me.
|This is a dream/visitation that Jean had a few days after Cally's and
Holly's deaths. Jean sent it to me cause she thought it would help me...and it DID.
You may not believe what you are about to read...but I know it to be true. There are things that she mentions that she did not know prior to sending me the letter. But I knew about them. Like the reference to "Bruizer".
Here is the Letter she sent me...
From: "Ferrets Unlimited Ferret Shelter"
I just woke up from a dream? halucination? visitation? I don't know but it is really freakin me out. John left for work a bit ago, and I was dozing on the couch. (yes, sometimes I take a nap in the morning. : P )
I was sitting/sleeping on the couch, and my mom, yes my mom who passed away 22 years ago walks up and sits down next to me like nothing, she is holding Cally, and Hope is on her shoulder, she was being followed by this beautiful boy that told her his name is Bruizer, and Garbonzo with no Beans was playing with him, there was a puppy too, tan with kinda long hair, a beautiful shepard. I mean a real zoo was with her. And it didn't seem strange!!!!
She didn't look old either, she was young, and she asked me how it felt to have my dream of a house full of kids. I laughed and told her I loved it some days, hated it others. She laughed at me. I asked her why she was stopping by and why she had all the animals with her. She told me that a couple of them had messages that they wanted to send to people who they love, and since I know the way to the bridge, they decided to come to me. ok, sure no problem. I know these people? She told me that I know some, and others I will know soon. oh.
I asked if they (the animals) could talk to her, and she said yes, but animals don't talk the same way people do, they have images, and emotions and feelings. That is why it is so hard for communicators to sometimes understand them. They use lots of symbols. Sometimes communicators think they understand, but they get the messages mixed up.
Oh, she told me that Garbonzo wanted to come because he missed me the last time I was at the Bridge and he wanted me to see that he can see and was healthy and having fun.
The ferret named Bruzier, wants his mommy to know that the puffy face thing thing is gone and he is very happy and has lots of friends. He tried to talk to her once, and he made the tv flash and do things that she didn't understand. He wanted her to know he was playing and dancing, and happy, and he said thank you for the soft bed thing.
The shepard's name is Mitzy. She just wanted her family to know she doesn't have her hip problem any more and she is with Mutzy now. The puppy was hit by a car and some lady helped him and he wanted Sally to know he is happy, and he will see her whenever she gets here. She stopped to help him and took him to the vet.
Cally said that lady who tried to talk to her misunderstood her. She didn't have a sore throat, she didn't want a thing in her throat and a sore spot or a boo boo from it. Mom stopped and looked at Cally and said ok, and then mom said, she said that she was suppose to cross to the bridge. She and Holly have been together for a long time, before we knew, at the bridge and long ago and when that lady asked her about dying she didn't understand. To animals, dying is not coming to the bridge and being here for their humans. She didn't want to die and not be here waiting for you. She said she has been your pet in many lives, and this one was the best. She is going to stay a ferret. She wanted you to make sure she got to the bridge to wait for you. That was what she meant by saving her, and she said you must have saved her cause she is at the bridge with Holly.
Holly is beautiful. No swelling and just sweet. She nuzzled Mom's ear, and mom said, Hope said that her name is not Hope, it really is Holly Heart and her mommy kat listened to her when she told her her real name, but I am allowed to call her Hope. She said Pie is being a brat, and Wolfie has a girlfriend (?)
I don't know anyone with a ferret named Bruzier that passed and had a soft bed thing, but he told her I do, I just don't know it, but you may be able to help cause you know her too. There was something that was swollen or puffy, I think it was on his face?? I think that is what he meant, he flashed a kinda picture in my head, and Mom didn't interpret, so I am trying to guess. That is what made him pass. He was a chocolate on this plane, and has the cutest pink nose!!!
Oh, Mom said that you do fine with communicating with the animals. You need to quiet yourself to hear more clearly, cause you make them all happy.
I asked her if she wanted some coffee, black since that is how she drinks it, and she told me, nope, don't need any coffee, but that she had to get going, she wanted to check in on me and the animals wanted to make sure that humans started to understand that they don't "talk" the same way we do, and misunderstandings happen, and I shouldn't be upset. i don't get that one.
She got up and headed for the door, but disappeared along with all the animals, and right where she was sitting, was a warm spot. I don't know if i was dreaming or halucinating.
what do you think??
|Well...The ferret named "Bruizer"...with the bump on his face was Tara's
ferret, Bruiser...and she did lay him to rest in a soft cushy thing. But Jean did not know that.
I sent Jean a pic of Bruiser, and she said..."That is him!!!!"
And the stuff about the Communicator and Cally...true...I was really beating myself up because the last thing Cally said to me was she wanted me to save her...and we took that to mean that she wanted to stay here with me.
Sally and the Shepard?..I do not know them...or at least I do not know the story...but if anyone reading this does, please contact me with the info?
That is it. It is over a month later...I still cry everytime I think or talk about Cally.
I miss her so much. today is May 30, 2009...5 years and 3 months later.... and i STILL I miss her/them so much!